I Don't Think I'm a Player (But It Sure Sounds Like I Am…)

A lot of my friends, both girls and guys, seem to be under the impression that I am a player. They may believe this because I’ll often date a few guys at once, am always looking to meet someone new, and perhaps maybe go out of my way to make sure that none of them has reason to think that I am dating other people. (Notice I did not say “lie”… it’s more like “strategic omissions,” which of course is completely different.)

So perhaps they are a little justified in putting me into the “female player” box. The thing is, I don’t really want to be there. I don’t mind it, but it’s not like I go out of my way to date more than one person. It’s just that none of them inspire me enough to stop seeing other people. Rarely can any of them capture my interest for more than a few dates. My friends say this is because I don’t give them enough of a chance, but I really don’t agree. I’ve always felt that I’m an all-or-nothing kind of girl; it’s either there, or it isn’t. I’m not talking about love at first sight (there is no such thing, only lust at first sight). I’m talking about that electric connection, when someone just looks so damn GOOD to you that you want to eat them alive. When you have butterflies in your stomach when you’re with them, when you’re about to be with them, and when you’re making plans to be with them.

I believe very strongly in instincts, (specifically mine), and that I know fairly quickly whether someone is “right” or not. They may be “right” in another sense, like as a friend, even a very special one that I’ll have for years to come- but as far as romance goes, I just know. A girl just knows.

So I guess I am a player… but I’m a player who wants to be tamed. I’m just waiting for the one who makes me forget the rest, and the possibilities. I’m waiting for the one who’s right.